I definitely cleared the first signpost. Of course it’s funny to say “I” did anything. All I did was simply maintain focus on the image of Guru Siyag and mentally repeat the mantra.

Now the second signpost almost occurred. I would say there was some locking in the chest and neck area.

I think as long as my focus continues, I should be able cross into the magick 3rd manifestation… let’s see!

It is stated the divine resides at the crown.

If that is the case, why do we focus on the 3rd eye?

Last night’s meditation was a wonderful samadhi. Today, I am fighting with some memories of my room-mate laughing at a TV show. For some reason, the memory of her laughter echoes over and over in my head. It is competing for time with my japa jap. Perhaps if I had not started the japa jap, it would never have come up as an issue?

Also note that supposedly Theravada Buddhism has the solution for people like me who crave samadhi – the buddha came up with insight meditation because he noted that even samadhi states were temporary.

And then that happens, you will experience again and again the tendency to perceive and japa jap using the mental and sub-mental layers of your being.

And so basically you just keep improving your ability to chant the mantra using the supramental koshas.

Good luck.

I then wrote a ton of answers and questions, etc.

I realized that real freedom exists in having no dependencies of any sort.

I further realized that all hankerings are junior the the anahata naad.

I developed an inquiry method:

1. sit down and visualize guru siyag’s image at 3rd eye
2. chant a few rounds of the mantra until the naad shows up
3. drop into a state of no-need
4. should anything appear (idea of having a body, a thought, a sensation) ask the anahata nada how it created it.
5. this will dissolve that appearance, because all appearances are junior to the naad

So, I did this method. I began to feel “ants” crawing all over – my feet, back, face, etc. Each time I would ask the anahata naad about the origin of these ants, they would disappear.
It’s pretty hard work to convince yourself that you are not your annamaya kosha after years of daily conditioning. But this inquiry technique helped quite a bit.

Hi Terrence,

Sorry it took so long to answer. I should be getting a better net connection in the next few days and so should be able to answer your mails regularly.

I’m not analytical about my experiences during meditation. Some practitioners do try to read into or analyze their experiences or try to relate it to world experiences. Off late I’ve been trying to simply become a witness to experiences (and even life to some extent): instead of being excited or disappointed by any experience I try to remain neutral. I have found that extremities of all kinds (happiness-sadness) brings only more confusion instead of clarity.

So, as far as experience during meditation is concerned, I try to just be; or like you said just keep going.

As far as the chanting is concerned, I have a few questions: Why did you freak out when the chanting became automatic? Also, I remember you saying that you hear the Anahad Naad. Do you hear it clearly? Have you tried concentrating on it?

As far as watching TV shows while chanting is concerned, its fine I suppose. Gurudev does say that do the chanting through all activities. Make sure that you are chanting consciously and not in an absent-minded way. It is not really how much you chant but with how much intensity that really matters.

Best,

Jui

On Thu, Jan 14, 2010 at 9:03 PM, Terrence Brannon <metaperl@gmail.com> wrote:

Oftentimes, when I do this meditation, I see a dark tunnel and it seems that lights are moving down the tunnel at a slow rate.

I really dont know what to do at this point.

I suppose the answer is the same as always: ‘just keep chanting, surrender to the Mother Force and wait and see what happens’

That’s why when we get involved with Siddha Yoga we start looking and practicing with the wrong perspective.

Today, I did a meditation where I did my best to use any body I could latch onto other than my annamaya kosha.

It worked like a charm!

The website speaks of the goal of evolution, but this video speaks of moksha.

Also, the quote of  Patanjali’s Samadhi paad speaks of cessation of tendencies as Yoga.

Then, with your eyes still closed, think of Gurudev’s image at the place between your eyebrows (also known as the third eye). This means that you have to try to imagine Gurudev’s picture in your mind.

Note they do not say to use your eyes to see Guru Siyag plastered on your forehead! I realized that I was making that mistake instead of simply using my third eye / mind’s eye to see there.

So I figure: “this is just some fear I have”.

But then the next morning I open the refrigeration and there is this big jug of a substance designed to encourage bowel flow.

And later that morning, my mother says: “your dad is going in for a colonoscopy today”

Hmmm, wow!