There is a lot of wisdom in this email from Jui Pagedar. Read it and reflect:

Hi Terrence,

Sorry it took so long to answer. I should be getting a better net connection in the next few days and so should be able to answer your mails regularly.

I’m not analytical about my experiences during meditation. Some practitioners do try to read into or analyze their experiences or try to relate it to world experiences. Off late I’ve been trying to simply become a witness to experiences (and even life to some extent): instead of being excited or disappointed by any experience I try to remain neutral. I have found that extremities of all kinds (happiness-sadness) brings only more confusion instead of clarity.

So, as far as experience during meditation is concerned, I try to just be; or like you said just keep going.

As far as the chanting is concerned, I have a few questions: Why did you freak out when the chanting became automatic? Also, I remember you saying that you hear the Anahad Naad. Do you hear it clearly? Have you tried concentrating on it?

As far as watching TV shows while chanting is concerned, its fine I suppose. Gurudev does say that do the chanting through all activities. Make sure that you are chanting consciously and not in an absent-minded way. It is not really how much you chant but with how much intensity that really matters.

Best,

Jui

On Thu, Jan 14, 2010 at 9:03 PM, Terrence Brannon <metaperl@gmail.com> wrote:

Oftentimes, when I do this meditation, I see a dark tunnel and it seems that lights are moving down the tunnel at a slow rate.

I really dont know what to do at this point.

I suppose the answer is the same as always: ‘just keep chanting, surrender to the Mother Force and wait and see what happens’