My meditation has a few phases. The first phase consists of a hunger. A worry. A desperation that I will sit here for 15 minutes and experience nothing. 

Then it hits… something completely beyond words shows up. And the first thing that kicks in is my doubting mind: “oh you havent practiced long enough. you paid all that money before and nothing this good ever happened. that cant be real – you’re just making it up”

Now over time, these phases will pass. I have given over my development to the Shakti and gradually she is laying her path to the end of the rainbow.

So dont worry. Just keep practicing. And fasten your seatbelt!